I am ready, I am ready, I am fine....I am colorblind.

So today and yesterday have been pretty sweet. :)
Yesterday I was at the movies all day loooong. I had an usher shift for once and that meant that me and whoever was scheduled to usher with me, went to "moniter" (aka watch) movies all day. I hung out alot with john which was chill I guess since he has a thing for me, and told everyone about it. we were getting alittle cuddly at times, which I probably shouldnt have let happen since its totally leading him on since I dont think Im too interested. (I am SO bad with leading people on...) but I have to say I am a bit interested. just not like he is in me. Oh yeah Dan keeps visiting me at work and wanting to hang out on my breaks and when I get off and such and he brings all his skater friends by too. I need some space, I dont know why hes so interested in me. It's kinda making me nauseated. thats because Im a loser, if I were normal, Id be thrilled cause hes really hot but no I had to go and practically hide from him in church on sunday. when am I gonna change? Moving on...anyways sunday I hung out alot with Brent too, omg I love that guy. haha hes so carefree and funny, and his eyes are blue which I love. he doesnt seem like the girl crazy type at all though and its going to be hard to tell (if I want to persue this and such) if he likes me or not. Today I went to this yoga class and man it made me feel good. It made me feel like my body is pretty. :)


ps. there are these guys that keep coming back to the movies to visit me and theyre emo and wear tight pants and such and I didnt think I was into that but man I think they are so cute